Adventuring into the darkness

Don't get me wrong. I know the darkness is where all the old pain is hiding too. I know that your mind has come up with a million reasons and reactions not to go there. Most of it is probably largely reactionary... it's running on autopilot and you are just going through life wondering why it feels like it does.

If you feel like there has to be more to life than the reality you are experiencing.... it's because it's true!! Your soul is begging you to come back to yourself.

Most people will not heed that call. They will keep pushing while their soul screams for stillness. They will numb, repress, avoid, and attack. They will fight tooth and nail for the half ass existence everyone told them they needed.

The brave ones will answer the call. They will get to a point where they just can't keep going on the same way. The yearn to be the example of what is possible, and not someone who just settles.

Diving in and exploring the darkness is deep work, it's hard. You have all kinds of thoughts and beliefs that aren't true, holding you captive from living the life that feels great for your soul! Your mind will twist and project everything and it's confusing af to figure out.

This is why I do what I do. Because we aren't meant to do this alone. We are built for connection and community. I adventure into my shadows whenever they ask. I celebrate the triggers that come up. Seriously. Sometimes it's more painful than other times, but that indicates to me, the depth of healing that is available.

It doesn't feel good all the time. I have cried a whole lot over the last few weeks. But that's ok. I am not suffering pointlessly. I am using my support system, mentors and community to explore and make what is unknown known. I am healing at the deepest levels. I have the opportunity to uncover even more magick.

Every. Single. Time.

It's not always easy. I'm a perfectly imperfect messy human af soul doing the work that my soul yearns for.

I believe that joy, and peace are your birthright. I believe you were born with an wellspring with everything you need within you. You have just forgotten. You don't remember how to get back. You don't know how to access it.

I am leading souls back to themselves and assisting them on making themselves at home in their center, where everything they need is already waiting in abundance.

This is my souls work. You can love ALL of you. Not just the pretty and acceptable. You can embody the wholeness of who you are. Let's adventure.

I have two spaces for a 1x1 container opening in April. Four months of support, adventure and healing. Message me if this speaks to you. I know that there are souls who need to hear it, I know that you are ready, you are just waiting for the sign... this is it.

Calm is a superpower

Today the keys got locked in our running vehicle. And I am celebrating!

I know that this sounds kind of ridiculous, but let me paint a picture for you..

You have to be at work in 30 minutes. You only live 15 minutes away but the whole city just got covered in almost a foot of fresh snow. (I stepped into my backyard that hadn’t been touched and it was taller than my boots, calf deep).

You woke up a little late and have 4 kids at home. The youngest two are both toddlers only 17 months apart. Your older children are 14 and 10. It was the 10 year old who started the vehicle for you so it could warm up before you had to drive downtown for work. The morning has been full. The house looks like a tornado and you are quickly adding all the ingredients for Chicken Enchilada soup into the crock pot for dinner.

Your son comes in to tell you that the keys are locked in the van, and it’s running. He says it was an accident and he’s so sorry. Your husband (who would normally handle this kind of situation) is out of town. It’s freezing cold and snowy outside. You have been watching vehicles getting stuck on the street all day.

How bad would you be freaking out if this was you?

You can’t call a locksmith without having to pay for it. You’ve used that reimbursement on your insurance too many times and they stopped providing it for you.

It was snow-maggedon yesterday. The kind of day and weather that makes people stay home unless they absolutely have to leave.

I thought about freaking out for about ½ a second. I didn’t. I stayed calm. I knew that everything would be ok and we would get into that vehicle.

I called my job and told them what was up. Thankfully my manager called me back a few minutes after my shift was scheduled to start and told me that I didn’t need to worry about coming in. Good luck getting into the vehicle.

My 14 year old found the last wire hanger in the whole dang house. I grabbed some shoelaces and a couple screw drivers and we went out into the blizzard.

She bent the hanger so it was straight with a hook at the end. I played with the screwdrivers enough to get a little opening so I could get the hanger inside. That hanger was so flimsy there was no hooking anything, or pushing any buttons with it.

There’s a trick that you can use a shoestring to loop around the kind of locks that I have in my old ass van and pull it up. I googled. I tied slip knots and I patiently worked away for an hour and a half.

During this process the thought popped in my head to message one of my friends that lived not to far away. I hit him up. He didn’t have the necessary tools.

I got the string into the door and almost on the lock! He stopped by to see if he could help. We used our team work and were able to get the vehicle open! Utilizing all the tools I had brought outside.

This process took two hours. By the time I went back inside my0 toes hurt they were so cold. But the vehicle was unlocked, turned off and the key was retrieved!

I am absolutely amazed at my calm! Old me would have had a melt down! I would have been so stressed that my head would have felt like it was going to pop off! Thinking of everything that could go wrong and the absolute worst case scenario. It would have definitely been the end of the world. Is that where you mind would go? Are you like me?

I would have been so frustrated! I would have still been plenty angry when I had finally gotten into the vehicle (I probably would have dumped that on my kid too). Who knows if I would have been ABLE to get into the vehicle when I was in that state of mind. Would I have had the idea out of nowhere to call my friend? Would I have had the patience to play with string, screwdrivers and a hanger for 2 hours? Would I have given up and just called a locksmith? Paid them at least $100 and possibly had the running vehicle run out of gas while I waited for them to make it to me in a blizzard? We’ll never know, but it doesn’t even seem like a stretch.

I am so proud to be able to celebrate such a miracle in my life! Seriously! I just went through that smooth and came out the other side feeling like celebrating. My blood pressure wasn’t raised. I kept a smile on my face.. And it wasn’t a forced, fake smile either. It was genuine.

I want this for you!!!!

Calm can be your super power too! You will have a moment in your future where you will be able to stop for a second and reflect on what just happened and say… “What?! I just went through all that nonsense and kept my peace? I kept my center? I kept my cool? Hell yeah!!”

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